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1.
If going to heaven means we meet again With all of our loved ones and our friends And if they know all the lies I've told And everyone I've bought and sold is there God, please - leave me on my own I'd happily put to pasture all of this If I could believe that you exist We're all aware that I tend to boast You make the bread, I'll steal the toast But I've never had an urge to re-enlist And tired, and cold as I may be Oh, will I ever stop pursuing selfish things? And blaze a way to altruistic means 'Cause I am standing on a precipice And questions like this force the choice - To turn away or leap? I'm asking you what's been on your mind All these wasted nights If giving the ghost up means I see her face And all that occured can be erased I know I don't want to be alone But I won't! I won't! I won't! I won't! I'm never satisfied with second place
2.
You beat your fist against your chest Afraid the hollow there would crack, at best Shatter at the worst A silent burst to announce to your friends Everything that you resent are all the things you represent You know you did it, and tonight you will repeat it We are the ones who lost our way (We are the ones who knew it all) We have the names you long to say (We are the ones you're warned about) Sullen looks from fiery eyes (Self-defeated battle cries) You'll never understand what we are thinking All we know, and all we yearn Is to find a place to call our own She said she'd take you to a place you knew A place you'd feel alright Tonight you learn the truth The dreams, they never work out in real life 'Cause this is what happens when it's too good And this is what follows open doors This is what happens when the dreams you want the most become yours And all those stupid writing tricks And all those metaphors aside I only want to be with you I'm hoping you can save my life
3.
Red, red walls and dark brown eyes And you're telling me you're leaving before I even said goodbye In between the awkward pause On the outskirts of applause I saw the look in your eye I shouted "I hear that there are bad thing where you're going Spiders the size of my hard lies and lonely, lonely" But I meant to say "Stay, please stay" Limb to limb and lip to lip And the feeling of lunacy sneaking in my grip I put down my telephone and crawled my way on home Don't worry friend, it's just a trip
4.
If you want to leave I will gladly end your suffering You're free to go I'm nothing if I'm not a gracious host Your honor clean Nothing left to keep you here with me Your future green And eager to accept your offerings But remember why you're here And the reason that you fall Don't forget the only one who loves you, dear It's the feeling you're ashamed It's the poison in your veins It's the temporary lull of growing pains Cut the water green Fiberglass and cans of gasoline And raise a toast To celebrate the son and holy ghost Bookend the scene A snowy, lonely cabin so pristine That old routine The bubbled tub where we became unclean You'll be here for the rest of your years Remember this song when you start to wonder what went wrong
5.
The Hostess, the Actress We're so impressed with your tact and gracefulness So show us your next move A breakdown, a tendu How else do you plan to impress us? I want to turn it off, I want to cough it out My plan's for approval, but all I keep saying is "Look at me! Look at me! Look at me!" So take me home, and take my clothes Throw them far away so that I can hardly see them Close enough so that I can quickly go When you get close Leave me alone Just take me home The heirloom, that black dress The way she moves is weightless Held up and pushed right into place So well constructed Your posture, your hairdo, mascara The frown on your porcelain face I want to say I love you, I swear I do My plan's for approval, but all I keep feeling is "Walk away from me! Away from me! Away from me!" I lost that feeling of lonely when you said you wouldn't stay In a typical, cyclical fashion I think I threw you away And I'm not scared to sleep alone I'm just scared for you to know I prefer to stay awake
6.
I washed my hands of all of these unsightly events Tore the foundations to sand and to stone And I resigned my post as poster boy of regret And ate my meals alone But you crept like carbon Through the walls of my apartment Breathing you in, I did it again It's so alarming An empty heart to house a home in Under my skin So hold me down, or throw me out Savor grace It's just another holiday It's just like everything you say It's such a pathetic display I washed my hands The lines all blurred The drain collected every single word But you moved like arson Through the walls of my apartment Burning my skin, you did it again It's so alarming An empty heart to house a home in Under my skin
7.
Bottles empty, cups are gone And the guests are finally home Before we find ourselves inside of the place where we belong Lights go out, soundproof my mouth To keep wrong words from coming out Then we'll work on walls and floors So we can stifle all your moans Stop screwing around - we came to get down We're burning everything else to the ground A furious fight, wrong or right I've spent twenty-two years never knowing it could be like this So you can either join or watch me die If I could, I would pull all the stars directly from the sky So they see you like I see you For what it's worth, it'd be the end of things To be you - just to be like this
8.
If I could just learn to relax Reduce these heart attacks Anyone with eyes would notice you across a room And if I may be bold Bold enough to fill these pages with praise for you I'd never have the room, room to write it out I'll shout it 'till my lungs give out I want you I need you It's what I wanted all along I want you I need you If we're destined to be poor As so many of us are There's no one that I would rather eat shoe leather with than you And if we strike it big Big enough to fill these lives up with supplies I would And just as a review, I'm glad to write it out I'll shout it 'till my lungs give out We'll call these our lean years While resting on our laurels
9.
If I could go back up north Even the score I'd fall to my knees at your feet, and what's more I would connect the lines that brought us to rights And conquer the miles and the perilous heights Maybe there's better things left to achieve And distance is never a reason to grieve But I still believe Twelve strong in our hotel room In upstate New York, we were made to believe That we'd always be young, restless and drunk And like the beds where we slept we were made and undone We awoke with the light, pulled back the blinds With a tangle of legs and half empty bottles of wine I recall the evening's vice And an exodus made through the smoke and the dice I wanted the best, and I found it I guess But it hurts when I think of how far from the rest We have flown this time But your arms are stronger than mine And the sum of our parts, so much greater than ours On our own could possibly be Ready and waiting for me

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released March 5, 2011

All music performed by the Golden Age of Radio, produced and mastered by Jeff Rosenstock.

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